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Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
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9:37 pm - to follow?
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How many of u out there try to be someone u arent.... to be someone who others want u to be, or just trying to impress someone to be there friend... What does friend mean? well if u have to change, or "impress" someone to be there friend, then are they really your friend? what about a girl, or for the girls who read this, a guy.... should u change for just one person? or should u be your self, and wait for the right person.....
Just a little something to think about, i made the right choice, and now i am who i am, and if u dont like it, then u dont have to, cuase im likeing it.
rember, be who u are, not who people force u to be~
current mood:  creative
current music: Some of my own junk im written over the years
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| Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
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9:40 pm - fun?????
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Well today i went to Xel ha... (Shell Ha) wasnt to much fun, just a place to snorkal, and spend all your money, but i got to see some cool fish, and swim with dolphins, and see some sea turtles... but other then that, i sat around and listend to music, i mean i dont no anyone down here, and im not the best at meeting new people, and well... famialy... eh who wants to hang with them, so i just was off to myself.... and im useing my last few mins of internet tonight cuase im leaveing friday, around 5PM, and getting home on Saturday around 9:30 am...... fun fun, at least we only have a 6 hour wait in the air port instead of a 12 hour one this time.... well not much time left and i got some other things to do, lata~
<3 to monicka
current mood:  drained
current music: ~~~None~~~
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| Saturday, August 28th, 2004
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7:28 pm - uh huh
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Mexico... wow..... boring.... well tonight i got a little more time, so lets start from the begining.... first night, me, my dad, and my mom got waisted, but yet my brother wont drink???? why i dont no.... but oh well i mean its legal down here so i said what the hell, and im been drinking at like every meal and wow... haha.... then we sat around for a few days, almost got killed by mexicans, and the only other fun thing we have done is we got to go to a reserve and see all these animals.... there was this little monkey there named jo, he loved me, cool little fellow, was just a baby... i think it thought i was its dad, its parents where killed... =( .................................................................................................................... other then that, nothing fun happend.... and well im realy sick of this place and cant wait to get home.... we get home on Sept 4. witch is Saturday, around 9:30am...... so CALL ME MOTHER FUCKERS and then we can hang out!!!!!!!!!! 318-1771
current mood:  bitchy
current music: A perfect circle - the outsider
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| Friday, August 27th, 2004
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8:37 pm - I HATE it here
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Fucking mexico.... oh wow fun... haha well its been a fucking week, and the best thing i have done so far is played with a baby monkey called jo.... Humm... well i miss monicka SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much, and i miss all of u, but yeah, not much more time on the internet so i gotta go, its fucking like 8 bucks and hour for internet, im leaving cancun and heading home on Sept 3rd just so u all no, call me and we can hang out before school
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| Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
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10:55 pm - damn~
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Leaving tomorrow ( thursday, the 19th ) for mexico... i dont get to see anyone for 2 weeks, and then when i get back, i go to school... oh what fun... fuck school, its bull shit, but oh well, make the best of it =/............. havent seen monicka all week, and now that im leaving i wont be seeing her for at least 3 weeks, and possibley 4 weeks, cuase of school... LONG fucking time... but oh well, shit happens... Lata~ im going to bed to get up and pack and leave, see u all in a few weeks, or years, or if i die in a tragic plane accident, then mabey never again
current mood:  disappointed
current music: A perfect Cirle - The outsider
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| Saturday, August 14th, 2004
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12:01 am - to loooong
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Any way today wasnt all that good, i just sat around, i wanted to see monicka cuase shes leaving well... today... bu yeah, i didnt have the time to see her, or she didnt want to see me.... one or the other, but its all good u no. ITS SHANMANS b-day, so i have to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! much <3 shannon.... Lets see, i sat at home, oh yeah, then my dad came home, and we ate fooood... always a good thing, and im leaving for mexico this comeing thursday, ill be there for 2 weeks, and get back like 3 days before school starts!! On no! its that time again, school =/ =/ =/ =/ i hate school... ugh, oh well, not a freshman anymore so thats cool i guess.. wwll not much for me to say since my day sucked... but i guess ill talk to u all later, and dont be afradi to call... (home) 318-1771 (cell)815-8298
current mood:  blah
current music: Smile empty soul
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| Friday, August 13th, 2004
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12:57 am - my love for monicka
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Ok, i have to say one thing first.... i dont usealy say songs but this one is for monicka, so dont make fun of me...
~~Place your hand on your heart, You feel that? becuase its real. I thought if i couldn't share this with you, I'd share you with the world.... If i had my chance, with 4 little words, i would say, "Are you my girl?" i wish i could have you, I wish you where my girl, I wish i could put my are around you, say that im with you... yes i no, but i hate how it sounds, i could trade it all, for the feeling i have when im with you, give it all away, sell it on ebay.... just to be able to say "Are you ok?" ~~
kinda sucks, becuz i just thought it up, kinda sucks becuz i didnt have time to look it over and fix some things, but i think it gives a idea.... and let this be known. i dont share this shit with people, i keep my songs to myself, i wont even fucking sing for monicka.... but i do love her, and i want her to know that
Brendan~
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| Thursday, August 12th, 2004
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11:58 pm - dum dum de do da
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Well, it happend again, i fucked up.... yep, always fucking shit up, now monicka is mad at me..... hummm well on the other hand i went to munch`n music tonight, was awesome i got to see a whole shit load of peeps, but the sad part is monicka was all over john, i mean its all cool cuase we arent going out or anything, just kinda frustrating(spelling).... and im leaving for mexico in a week, so i wont be at the next munch`n music... affter that i bit pierces nipple, got pizza, and walked home with jermy and carlos. then went to my moms friends house, with my mom of course, and watched this movie about the people in africa who die... humm cant think of much more, and not feeling to great cuase im talking to monicka about how much i fuck up and how much of a bad person i am, and how im gonna hurt her, and how im a fucking fucked up mother fucking retard.......... so im gonna go
lata~
current mood: aggravated
current music: finger 11 - one thing
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12:49 am - lets see
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Well... i have been doing alot of thinking this past hour, and i dunno felt like i should write something, so here i am writeing someting, its amazeing isnt it! Anyways, im going to Munch`n Music tomorrow, so that should be fun.... i get to see kristen... that should be fun... oh. AND I GET TO SEE MONICKA!!! thats will be so Wounderful!! i cant wait... i mean i love her sooooo much, and i just cant wait to see her... i love the sound of her voice.... and her freckles.... so beautiful... shes just so peaceful, and its almost as if time stops when im with her, so excited to be able to see her, since it has been a WHOLE day since i last saw here!!!! and i get to see the LEXI! haha shes awesome... cant forget the bro's.. Micha, Mexi, John, Ect... u no who u are.... well i think im gonna go. Getting late for me.
Later~
And, rember i will always love u~monicka
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| Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
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8:23 pm - what a day...
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Wow... what a day, i sat at home, and wish i had something to do... haha well i could of gone out, but i was to lazy, guess its just a "day off" we all need them at some point in time. I did speak to someone new today though, guess that was cool, and my friend kristen is comeing from nevada!! cant wait! well not alot to write about today cuase it was lame, and i didnt do much, so i guess ill check in tomorrow and tell u about all the fun things that happen
Later~
current mood:  geeky
current music: Smile empty soul - Nowhere kids
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1:18 am - humm...
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well.. i forgot i had this shit, so i decided i would find it... long ass time since i wrote in it... i mean last time was why i was in school worrieing about finials... but anyways, lets get to the drama... u no the good shit that everyone likes to read, yep that stuff... where people fuck with u.... to see drama... cuase it amuses them, as long as it doesnt happen to them that is.
Well i decided to change a bit over the last few months, and i am now being myself... not that poseing punk kid, i think that is probley the biggest thing that happend to me since welll.... it is as for me. Also, this girl monicka... OMG... im so in love, i like her SOOOO MUCH its not even funnie, i have so many feelings for her, and they are so mixed, i dont no what to do, or what to say, and when im with her its like im in a dream, and i just wish that dream would never end, but i think its gonna end soon, tonight she asked me how i could like someone who just got out of a relationship.... i really didnt no what to say, cuase i mean i like her so much i would do anything for her, and i never want to leave her.... but i think she still had a thing for john, so i decieded i would just stay away, and not fuck with things anymore, cuase i always fuck shit up....
well im getting tierd, lata~
current mood: depressed
current music: Avril ~ My happy ending
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| Tuesday, January 27th, 2004
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4:24 pm - wow days seem long
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Yep to many finials, to much studying my head hurts, but at least my lowest score on a finial so far is a 88% (im such a nerd!....) but other wise i good. PE was long but fun, played a new game... ran some stairs.... blah blah blah...
Auto wasnt so great, you ever had one of those teachers that you ask them a question and they just go on and on and you cant figure out how to turn them off.... yeah i had one of those teachers, a good mp3/or cd player comes in handy in days like that.... well later for now, time to go make my head hurt more (wild sex!)
current mood: bored
current music: Anti Flag - Turncoat
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| Monday, January 26th, 2004
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5:55 pm - this is gay....
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Yeah today has been pertty gay, way to many fucking finial's in school and shot a piece of metal into my fingernail in auto to day, and affter all that i sent my computer away about a week ago for repairs and they said it would be back friday but it never came so for now i have to use my moms computer witch is ok i guess. I hope it comes back soon but it sure in hell didnt come to day ( i bet the mail men are to bussy jerking off... ) well, soon this journal will be looking better, this is my first day =P
current mood:  crazy
current music: fuck i dont know, to many songs in my head
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